Oooop, Back On The "Cusp 'O Fat"

Okay, so yes, I seemed to have been on the right track this week. I worked out twice; I was not over eating (or over drinking too much). So that called for an evening/afternoon celebration, right, well it happened to be a mates birthday party, which led to Bloody Maries the following morning……that led to a continued day of ‘celebration’ on into the following evening. On a brighter note I was too busy drinking to really over indulge in anything else. On the darker side, days of celebration can lead to a present of cellulite and bloating, yuck and intense munchies….which lead to breakfast BLT’s and lunch AND dinner of pizzas.  On a brighter note, again, since I have decreased my mad consumption of food and my pig like manner of eating my stomach had shrunk a small piece and I couldn’t gorge myself like I have done in the past because I felt much fuller and too uncomfortable to continue over eating this time.

AND THAT IS WHERE IT MUST STOP.  I felt like I even over ate into the next following day though, oh dear, because I ate until I was full…a second day in a row, a super big ‘no, no’ if you would prefer your stomach to not be totally stretched out again and definitely a diet ‘no, no’ if you don’t want to feel like a lazy, unmotivated, unthininspired fat blob. One big plate of curry, butter chicken of all terrible things, and even a few cookies……and one piece of left over pizza earlier for breakfast. If this is making you hungry just grab a handful of your fat gut and say “no, you’re having something raw baby, shut up fatty”. The thought of all those carbs and fat is still totally grossing me out; the desire for junk food is so not surpassing my desire to be rid of my surplus of fat at the moment now. 

At this rate I will never have “after pictures” because this is “before behavior”……so if you are thinking about carbing out and over eating don’t do it! Wait until Christmas feast time or something because that is how long it is going to take to not yo-yo and actually see some results.

Feeling full is like being shackled mentally and physically. Satiety equals weakness because you were weak to get to that point and now you are a human stain most likely on your couch next to some trough like structure. Stop the cycle in its tracks now. Preventative measures and rules need to be put into place…..we will get into what some good rules are soon.

Now I am basically back where I started on this ‘cusp of fat’ but not worse off and hopefully a little wiser and with the Miss Party Mode a bit out of the system I can get back to being more responsible! I am starting off with breakfast of ½ a Mango, I don’t want to be greedy, and a 1 hour hike outside in the soul quenching nature, ahhh. That should get my week off to a healthy start of matureness and self-control….hopefully.